Will things ever get better
I have been in a violent relationship for 12 almost 13 years I have 3 beubeauti children. Things where not always abusive the first 6 years where great then on Christmas Eve night he blacked out and it begins I left came back less than 2 weeks later things where very scary he’d wake me up screaming in the middle of the night that I was a whore and that I wanted everyone except him so we got our income tax return and decided to get away we got a honeymoon sweet for the night some alcohol and proceeded to have our Time away from our problems then it all started all over again he dragged me into the bathroom slinging me from the marble shower to the hard floor multiple times then he threw me on the bed mind u I was barely concious and proceeded to choke me so hard my neck was bleeding from his nails and he bit me then forced me to leave the hotel bc my brother qas on his way to hang out with us he made me wear a big hood overy face to get out and started again while I was driving he jumped out of the car and I got away..well months later we started talking bc I found out I had a miscarriage and things had been great getting back together and we ended up pregnant with our daughter who is now almost 5 and had another daughter who is almost 3 and then we had become pregnant with our son and by then no other physical abuse had happened after I had jim we where constantly fighting he stayed out all night chasing meth and all day digging roots to make money for dope so he never really seen us one night I snuck on his phone and noticed that he had been talking to alot of woman so I brought it up and asked for a divorce well hell broke loose again he got so defensive about me snooping around on his stuff I ended up with a broke nose both my lips where purple pretty much one whole side of my face was purple I couldn’t get away. I just had a C-section probably 3 weeks before it happened so about 2 months he had been been gone for 2 days and came home I was upset bc he missed my birthday and I spent if alone so we started arguing and he held a knife to my throat screaming I was cheating on him then he passed out I had snuck and got ahold of my cousin to come pick me and my kids up while he was passed out and she called the law they came picked him up and I was proceeding to leave the house as soon as I got away I got a phone call yesterday was already out and knew where I went he begged and begged and I went back so in December 2017 me and him had another altercation he head-butted me so hard my eye socket was broke my sister had just gotten in from Florida she was going to stay with us to help me with the kids and when she seen my eye we started arguing again eventually he left and the next day I went to the police station now I currently live 2 states away and he’s never stopped begging me to come home he’s harassing my family and friends and anyone who I have had contact with my life is a living night mare and it’s not seeming to get better..
I’m so sorry you’re going through this turmoil God is beside you and just lean on Him and His word for comfort and peace. I had to lean on the Lord when I was dealing with my horrible ex husband and it was so difficult to run from the hateful verbal abuse. Prayers my dear. Yes it will get better one day and one second at a time. It’s taken me 2 years but I’m finally better!
Time ……time and prayers….and more time and more prayers…and NO CONTACT!!!! Change your number and be very selective of who you give it out to. If he gets ahold on the new number change it again. It’s hard, I know that but it’s the only way. I know you have children with him but he doesn’t deserve to have contact with the children either. Talk….talk to someone or many people…tell your story….don’t hold it in. Get all those emotions out and get help for the children too. Stay strong and rely on the Lord to continue to take care of you and the kids, He was the one who kept you and the children safe and alive through all that, He was the one who got you out, He’s not going to abandon you now. Keep your faith, and ask for help when you need it. Don’t be ashamed to ask for help. And remember you are NOT a victim of Domestic Violence….You my dear are a SURVIVOR!!! Stay strong momma and know that you got this handled. Gather your babies, hold them close and give them all the love you have and continue to survive.
I understand and totally relate to your situation as well all can on this site. However from my experience from being a victim to becoming a domestic violence advocate is give all your problems and worries to God with God all things are possible. I’m living proof of it i was in a domestic violence relationship for 7 years and I won’t lie and say it was easy but i promise you, You can definitely do it!! One step at a time one day at a time one change at a time. Its starts with prayer. If you need any kind of help seek your local YWCA its an organization for domestic violence victims that can get a variety of resources. I’m a domestic violence advocate for my local YWCA and they help out a lot. Even with legal issues if you have questions it may be some thing to look into. Please know you are not alone and you have support all around you 💜💜💜 you are beautiful, you are strong, you are worth it!!